I can’t help it. It’s very much in my nature to observe, interpret, analyze, analyze some more, maybe over analyze a little, and then draw some conclusions. The teacher side of me wants to explain. The writer in me looks for the story. The dreamer searches for deeper meaning.
But I’ll admit there are times when my attempts to tease out the story or provide some kind of philosophical analysis only detract from the moment – times I say too much when I should just let the moment speak for itself.
Because my son is non-verbal, I am always speaking for him. I observe his behavior. I interpret and analyze it. I draw conclusions about what he wants and needs. I’m like the thought bubble above his head, providing context and meaning, as close as I can gather from the clues he’s providing.
However there are holes in the story, missing clues. He has no way to verbalize his internal world of thoughts and feelings – I can only make my best guess at them. And when his behaviors are interpreted through my brain they are sometimes tinged by my experiences, expectations, and biases.
It’s like when Jurassic Park scientists fill in the holes in the dinosaur gene sequence with frog DNA – they get something very close to a dinosaur, but it’s not really 100% dinosaur.
So I’m sharing another of my boy’s favorite YouTube videos. And, oh! How I wanted to analyze the crap out of it because of its profundity and timeliness and timelessness…fill in all the gaps with my parental pride and amazement and perhaps a little philosophical frog DNA about my boy being a “dreamer” like his mom.
But I thought this time I would just let my son be his own dinosaur with as little of me in the mix as possible. Let him “speak” for himself.
The song is “Imagine” by John Lennon, performed by Playing for Change (my son’s favorite YouTube channel which brings together musicians and singers from all over the globe to “connect the world through music”).