Welcome to My Alternate Universe

Published February 15, 2014 by Jen Rosado from MyAlternateUniv

I’m writing to you from my alternate universe.

No, I haven’t met my alter ego after being catapulted through some fissure in the “space/time continuum”.  And I wasn’t transported to another dimension to fight my evil twin to save humanity (however, that WOULD be a really cool story).  It’s possible I accidentally caused the untimely death of a butterfly, sending ripples into the future where I now find myself, but that’s not too likely because I generally try to keep my distance from insects of any kind.  Regardless of the reason, the truth is I find myself here, in this uncharted universe, living a very different life, and I am not the same person I was.

On some other timeline, on some other plane of existence, the old me is living the life I had planned.  I picture her to be a peacefully content, self-assured Super-Mom, and a bit of a smug know-it-all,…very likely an insufferable pain in the ass.  I’ll try not to judge her though because, bless her heart, she means well and doesn’t know any better.

So what’s it like in this alternate reality?  Well before I jump right into my adventures, allow me to provide some important back-story.  I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, which I think means I feel a general sense of dread all the time without any specific reason.  We anxiety-prone folk have many coping strategies to help us navigate life (which, let’s face it, is an incredibly frightening bag of nails on a good day).  My go-to coping strategy is CONTROL.  By orchestrating the details of day-to-day life and carefully planning for every contingency, I try to avoid any situations that might throw me into a state of panic.  I am always on the lookout for obstacles or danger – I smooth the path ahead to lessen the fears I have about the future.

I suspect that someone was onto me, because not too long ago the laws of the Universe shifted and the control that I counted on as my protective shield was suddenly stripped away.  And just like a character in a sci-fi story, I woke up here…in this strange, unsettling, humbling, enlightening place.

Weird, right?  Weirder than you think, my friends.  It’s taken awhile for me to get my bearings and decide the best course of action.  When you unexpectedly find yourself in a life that is “almost, but not quite, entirely unlike” the life you expected…what should you do?  I guess you do the same thing you would do if you found yourself in any unfamiliar territory without the comfort of a well-planned itinerary:  1.  Focus on survival.  2.  Make observations.  3.  Take lots of field notes.  4.  Blog about your experiences (of course).

And so my adventures begin…

(Please note:  If you would like to read my adventures in order, click “birth” in the “Categories” column on the right and read the story titled “Birth – Alternate Universe Via C-Section”.)

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4 comments on “Welcome to My Alternate Universe

  • Ah, us GAD-ers are quite the bunch. My go-to strategy is imagining every horrific possibility of every situation, I suppose in an attempt to prepare myself for the worst. Living with a constant doom and gloom cloud is great fun! 🙂

  • I enjoyed reading this! It makes me think of your latest post and just how far you’ve come! Control is important in all our lives and I believe, even if we aren’t quite as anxious, that if we’re moved from the familiar we all have to take stock!
    I think… just from the posts I have read in the last year or so… you are doing more than fine AND you’re recounting your bumpy ride in a humourous way… to be an inspiration for other who may follow in your footsteps!
    Keep going! You’re a winner!! 🙂

    • Thank you, AJ!! 😀 I very much appreciate your words of encouragement!!
      Writing is definitely a wonderful form of therapy for me. I do feel that, despite the bumpy ride, I’ve sort of gotten used to this “new normal” – to stay with the analogy, it’s like I’m in “cruise control” now. It’s a good time for me to reflect on life with a renewed perspective and maybe even some humor…remind myself not to take life too seriously! 🙂

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